Less of me for more of you

     Sharing the story of my mission trip to Jamaica has been extremely hard thing for me to do and I have yet to be able to go into great detail about it. The reason to this is because it was probably one of the most trying and emotional weeks of my life. Being in a poverty stricken place with no comfots of home left me feeling incredibly empty and at the end of my rope. I felt like I had no one to turn to and no where to release this burden of despair. Feeling completely alone the Lord lead me to the cross and transformed my heart just as he lead me to share my experience of his extreme love and power today.
     2 Corinthians 12:9-10New International Version (NIV)

⁹ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ¹⁰ That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 

      These two verses are such a great expression of what exactly happened to me that week and what is still happening to me now back home. The Lord used my emptiness and vulnerability to fill me with his perfect love. He was able to drain me of the world and pour into me his power and strength. Through that I was able to see so much more clear the plans he had for my life. He also showed me that missions is something that not just every other Christian is called to but something every Christian is called to.

       In Matthew 28:19 God says " Go therefore and make disciples of all nations" When God says that he's not  just talking to a select few but to all of his children. This verse was a huge slap in the face to me. Even though God was completely able to transform me and make me his hands and feet in Jamaica I told myself I was NEVER going to put my self in this emotionally draining position again. Than I realized that is not my choice, God is the one who makes plans for our life. This trip taught me that you cant just give the Lord the things we want him to fix but that we have to completely surrender all of us to him.

        It is our job to literally go light the world with Jesus's love. Yes we have a mission field right her in our back yards but we all have to step up and share his love in the darkest most uncomfortable places. We are all called to missions we are called to love. We our the children of God and he has placed that calling on all of our lives. We are all given spiritual gifts and some of gifts may not thrive in third world places but that does not mean we are exempt from Matthew 28:19. When your vulnerable and aren't thriving you may discover a spiritual gift you never knew you had but you have to give yourself the opportunity to have less of yourself and more of God.